Sorry it took Me so long to post again!!!

I am so sorry I have been in the background reading and praying for all of you, so I haven't been completely gone. I have just been hanging back holding my breath but I guess I need to breathe. The pregnancy has been normal and boring once I decided it was and quit listening to those crazy doctors that talk out of their ass!!! My only complaint is that my wrist (thumb) in particular hurts me most of the time. I couldn't even move my pillow with my right hand last night. I can't scratch my back, hold anything heavy, it even hurts to write. Dr says that it is fluid in my joints (common with pregnancy) or a cyst, but I have never experienced such a decreased range motion. It feels more like arthritis. Anyway, Hubs and I started to work on the nursery this weekend. I figure I have waited long enough. My shower is a week from Sunday so I figured I needed a proper place to put things. I seriously could have waited till after the baby to do all this but everyone wants to get this show on the road. I really just want this sweet baby in my arms and kissing his/her face. I feel like Valentines day/weekend will be the arrival date!! I just want to get through one more birthday (THE BIG 32!!!) before he/she arrives. Birthday is Jan 25th so anytime after that is good for me!! I am praying for you all that you are met in your need. That peace will always find it's way in your heart. Happy New Year!!
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I am now scared of FEET!!!

Well, for the few of you that continue to check up on me, sorry it has been a while since my last blog. Everything seems so mundane these days. I go to work, I sleep, I eat....and repeat. I have now had three different sonographers look at our baby and they all say that baby looks great!!! However, I made the mistake of asking one of them to measure his/her feet. They appeared large but I know that the screen can be deceptive so I asked out of curiosity. This kid's feet are measuring 1 and 1/2" already and we still have at least 12 weeks to go!! My coworkers have now named the baby FLIPPER!! We don't want to know what we are having boy/girl but now I pray it is a boy and my princess won't have to be a wicked step sister where the shoes never fit!!! So now I am more scared of baby feet than baby head!! HAHA!! All other pregnancy things are as usual, I feel fat, the baby is moving lots (but daddy hasn't felt it yet), getting a wee bit miserable sleeping situation. I am a stomach and back sleeper and neither are condusive in pregnancy. Good news is that I have only gained 8 pounds. That is one of the plus sides to all the weight you gain going through ART. My OB thinks I eat healthy, but really I was just 15 pounds heavier to begin with!! HEHE!! Cravings are a tough one, many people ask me and I have no idea about any one thing or another. Mushrooms very fond of, anything salty for the most part every once in a while I can't seem to eat enough chocolate (but that is seldom), and salad. I love salad more so than before. Baby is starting to hear now so when hubs comes in from work baby starts moving around lots. I guess that is about it for now. I will try to be better about letting you guys know how things are going and keep posting.
I am still praying for you all!!!
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Abnormal AFP!!

Geez, just when I take a deep breath. My Triple screen/AFP came back abnormal. So my OB sent me to Maternal Fetal Medicine to have a Level 2 ultrasound. I know that the test is notorious for false positives so I wasn't that bothered, just a bit curious. But they are feeding my need to see the baby on a regular basis and that makes me happy. The sonographer is a friend of mine so that was cool and she would tell me if anything looked funny, she said that the baby looked perfect as far as she could tell. Then Dr MFM walks in the door and tells me that there is no such thing as a false positive AFP. What the f?????? So now I am nervous. He says that it is like saying you have a false positive hemoglobin. It is a number plain and simple. Just what I needed to have another thing to worry about! Oh well, at least they have found another reason for me to see our little creation on the big screen on a regular basis.
On another note, though I may not be posting much these days I am keeping up with most of you!! I am holding my breath for Mary Ellen, praying for the last Straw (pun intended) for Rachel, and praying that all that Samantha's stitches holds that baby in there!!
You guys have been on a role lately. Most of you through your frustration have written some very funny blogs. I actually laughed out loud at a couple of you!! I can appreciate good infertile humor. (Sorry, I don't consider myself amongst the fertile.) I am hoping and praying for you all!!
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Denial!!!

I think I am in DENIAL over this pregnancy! I don't know if I am just still not feeling well because of the hormones and such, or if I still won't allow myself to get excited. I am usually a big time planner and I am growing increasingly frusterated over just picking out a theme for the room! I am the creative one that has everything decorated and done to a T by the next month. It feels like writters block. I have decorators block! Everytime I try to think ahead I want to cry with a feeling that I will never get there. Thanks for the rant and know that I am still here silently rooting you guys on and praying lots.
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PS If the old wives tale is true... My baby is going to have an AFRO by the time he or she gets here! Indigestion sucks!!!

BIG SCARE!! Warning TMI and Preg Talk

Well, Friday was a usual and boring morning when I sat down at my desk and felt something wet in my neather region. Since I have been combating a bad UTI I thought I had just peed on myself a little, so I quickly jumped up and told my partner I need to go to the bathroom NOW!! So I ran to the bathroom, jerked my pants down, and it was what all of us IFer's dread to see BLOOD!!! Not just a little spotting but it went through my pants down my leg gushed when I took a step bleeding. I started shaking and my BP shot up. I called my RE and he didn't call me back after half an hour. At this point I am sitting in my office on one of those big blue diaper like pads that you see in hospitals. Shaking like a leaf because I am scared to death! Finally my charge nurse walks by my office and see's that something is wrong when she asked I simply opened my knees a bit and she freaked out! She made me go in one of our rooms (I work in an OB/GYN Assessment Center, sort of like the ER of a Women's only hospital) and lay down. They called my doctor twice (and I had already phoned him once with no reply) and his response was, why do you keep calling me I had to take a shower first. HUH?? What the hell does that mean? I guess he didn't think that the nurse would tell me that but all these nurses are my friends, HELLO!!! Then he tells her don't call anyone out just send her to U/S when they all get here. (Which was three hours from then, it was 4:30am when this all started) I was in pure panic mode and he should know this!!! The things that we go through to get this far, I feel like he should have done everything in his power to rest my nerves! Instead he made it worse. So now I don't know what to do, I want to confront him in some way, without being bitchy! Help me out girls! I will hopefully graduate on Friday, so I will see him then. I want to have my game plan all laid out! Sorry, I left you hangin..... Baby was fine sub chorionic bleed most likely where implantation occurred (so they say). I think it was a bit heavy for implantation bleed! I mean this was full flow period bleed. Oh well, enough of that. 10 weeks and 3days! Hanging in there!!
I am still rootin for all you gals~~ :)
(((huggs)))
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Warning TMI and Preg Talk!

Sorry for such the long time between posts! For the couple of you that read my blog! Everything is going fine pregnancy wise. We had another ultrasound on the 3rd and baby was moving around and heartbeat was fine. I have 2 weeks and 2 days to be out of the first patch of woods. I am still holding my breath and I guess I will be doing so for the next 6 months. Right now I have a UTI! It is killing me and the antibiotic makes me feel like crap (like I needed any help right now!)!! I have been on it for a week tomorrow and I just can't take it anymore! They want me to take it for 10 days, but I don't think I can make it! Sleeping sucks these days, I wake up at 3am no matter what! Hungry, pee break, it will be something I assure you. I can go to sleep at 1am and 3am eyes are open and I am reaching for the remote. I have even tried eating and peeing at midnight hoping that I would have no reason to wake up at 3am! That didn't work either. I am so tired during the day I must nap or I would literally die!! I know that may help me to sleep more at night, but hell no I am not giving up my nap!! And that is that! RE still hasn't released me because of the damn UTI! Maybe I can squeeze another ultrasound out of him! I just don't know what I am going to do if I can't see the baby every other week as I have pretty much since conception. My poor kid is going to come out with the jitters from all the ultrasounds. Anywho, other than a killer UTI and typical pregnancy stuff, I am A OK! Hope all of you are well, I look forward to catching up to you soon!
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Warning pregnancy talk!

Well, We had a wonderful vacation in Orlando. The lines weren't bad and no one got bent out of shape about anything. We stayed at the beautiful Hilton Grand Vacations Resort-Tuscany. It was an amazing 1 bedroom condo with a full kitchen and washer and dryer to boot! I came home with no dirty clothes from our trip!!! Now for other news, Hubs and I saw the most amazing heartbeat today!!! Galloping horses to a very quick beat!! Started to decrease my meds. One more U/S on Friday and I graduate to hopefully being just boring old pregnant. I will keep you posted to the end. My thoughts and prayers are with all of you still! I haven't forgotten about any of you!
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